And this is the judgment, that the light has come into the world, and people loved darkness rather than light because their deeds were evil. For all who do evil hate the light and do not come to the light, so that their deeds may not be exposed. But those who do what is true come to the light, so that it may be clearly seen that their deeds have been done in God.
— John 3:19-21, NRSV Bible with Apocrypha
We are so torn. We reach for what we think gives life and it all too easily entices us, fools us, and warps our very ability to perceive the difference between death-dealing and life-dealing. We just know the light is too bright, life-giving decisions and actions too hard, the freedom outside our familiar prisons too risky.
When we get there…and all of us do…Lord, light of the world, have mercy on us.